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1. First race (San Diego Rock n Roll Relay half marathon) ever with mom relay race of 7 of 13 miles all over San Diego. Started to run.
2. Completed 1 AmeriCorps service year (August ) started 2 term.
3. Toured with Mrs Henry, Howlin Rain, and Whiskey Circle and helped how I could. Saw lots of California.
4. Instagram/ iPhone and my pocket photos posting really starts with my acquiring iphone 5, oh smartphone.
5. CAT / DOTTIE living at home with me.
6. Reconnected with people I have met from my France time. Baja Mexico & Boston trips!
7. seven years with my partner and roadtrippin down the CA-1
8. full year of living in san diego down south ( aug 13 – now ) with my man.
9. Septum!
10. Started taking community classes/working on myself.
11. Sat down and talked with a homeless man in Hollywood.
12. Tried really hard at times and didn’t even care at others … Seeking more.
13. Made the best decision ever to get into Frank Zappa and got myself Frank Zappa and the Mother’s Freak Out record for my 27th birthday.
14. new camera to me, for freelancin and future life plans and goals.
I find myself at a hard place. I decided to try AmeriCorps again for the second time for various reasons. I didn’t get the experience I expected last year. I really wanted to do the hard work. I want to help young people. I wanted to have some form of income/benefits.
Yet , inside of me I want more and more then that… I want to be myself with my whole heart. I want to be a maker, to create, and to be an Artist. I feel like l have been running away from it and it is time to stop and look into the mirror and face who I am supposed to be and I am starting by writing this post.
I have been wanting to blog or write online as long as I can remember. I want this blog to be my documentation of trying to figure it out. I know that I may never figure it out but I will try my best to live the life I want to make for myself.
1. worked with 2nd graders afterschool & completed 1st graphic design internship
2. applied to AmeriCorps
3. started 1st full-time position as an AmeriCorps member in Aug 2013
4. moved to Sunny San Diego & started to network in earnest
5. 3rd bridge school benefit 2013 CSNY
6. worked on lots of design & photos for Mrs. Henry
7. started bleaching my growing hair again
8. read 18 books
9. was able to bike to work until Jun, when I began a very long daily drive
10. conquered the FREEWAY & am a car owner again
11. drank way too much dr pepper
12. got a hand me down iphone 4 aka 1st smart phone (dec 13)
13. moved in with my partner in crime
more lists to follow (2014 goals & intentions, music & style) and i also hope to come back to this post & add photos
At this point I have been doing AmeriCorps for 11 weeks. I had wanted to try and blog about it but here I am. I am adjusting to moving away from my hometown, living with my boyfriend, and the long drive to work. I am learning how to have and create my own life, while trying to survive the day.
I don’t want this to be a blog about AmeriCorps but I can not lie that I am beyond excited about the GOVERNMENT SHUTDOWN ENDING. AmeriCorps is a funny situation that I am still trying to get a handle on so I don’t think my whining and complaining would do anyone any good. I know its hard like most jobs and it all depends on the site placement, I have decided to make the best of it.
One of the reasons why I decided to join AmeriCorps was because it seemed like a good idea. I was tired of my part-time job that I hated that was going nowhere fast and I was also over the fact that my relationship was long distance. I feel like ever since I ended college and even now almost T-H-R-E-E years later, I have been trying to figure out W-T-F I am supposed to be doing.
Last Tuesday, I had a bad bad day that ended with being locked out of my home without my phone or wallet. IT was one of the worst days I had since moving here and it led to my understanding that I am creative and I want to do that for a living. I have been all this time its just all these thoughts in my mind that stop me. I wish I could be shameless, and completely free. The classes I enjoyed doing while in college the reason I took 5 years to complete my degree. I made the decision that every single day I will be working towards making it true.
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Today I woke up to email letting me know that yet another company had decided to “move forward with candidates we felt had the most significant experience and fit for this role.” This time is was for a full-time internship with the possibility of a stipend. I know that a huge part of the job hunt and search is rejection and I am currently learning to deal with it and grow a tough skin.
When I started university I had vague ideas of what I wanted to be but I knew that I needed a degree to get a good job. My parents encouraged me to study whatever I wanted. I liked artsy things and I loved magazines and I always liked school and thought about being a teacher. I settled on double majoring in Humanities & Art (graphic design and photography courses). I hate to think know that I wanted a plan b and another plan just in case.
At this point it had been almost THREE YEARS since I have graduated (in dec). I have to admit I feel like a failure and I am disappointed in myself. But, I see and know things know that I didn’t know or understand when I set my goal about having a good job. I have been working in a unrelated field part time jobs and I am still figuring this stuff out.
I am applying for internships and part time jobs. I am seeing the obstacles as part of the path. I am thinking about masters degrees, americorps, teaching,
i am about to finish the school year at my part-time job.
i am about to end my internship at nonprofit company.
i am about to get out of long distance relationship and get into being in the same place (finally for good i hope).
i am about to
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